Tuesday, August 19, 2014

quieting my mind and the water relation ~

In all things seek balance, photo by Sue Allemand Art

I have, what I guess they call, a "racing mind".... I know many creative people who have it.  Your mind is constantly thinking and planning and working... all day, every day... even when you're sleeping!  I wake in the morning and feel like I haven't slept at all.  And I can remember a lot of things I thought about or dreamed about in the night.  Vivid dreaming - like in color and I can stop, rewind, make things happen a different way, change the scenery, do things better.... OK, maybe it's called being a control freak.... but I can't STOP it!  I always wonder what it would be like to just "zonk out"!  Get a full night's sleep!  A sleep so deep that you don't remember a thing!  What does that feel like??  How much more energy would I have during the day??  How much more could I get done??  

OK - wait a minute.... I get an awful lot done in a day as it is... always working and running around - maybe I don't want to get more done in a day!  haha.  

But at this time in my life, I'm ready to slow down a bit... enjoy every single moment... simplify my life... be peaceful and not stressed...just enjoy what comes.   I've been reading a lot of books and doing classes in the last 6 years that try to teach you to meditate, slow down, get rid of the drama, enjoy the moment, be present, be still - and I've really been loving it!  My life is so much more at ease.  I try not to let things irritate me as much (most of the time - still a work in progress. I think this is really hard to do all day, every day - unless you live in an ashram or alone in a hut in the middle of nowhere!  haha!).  Most days, I go with the flow and feel there's a purpose to everything... I just need to be patient and calm and it'll reveal itself.

But it's a daily practice... I'm still learning.  One thing I can't get the hang of, totally, is meditation!  I LOVE the idea of it, the feeling of it, the practice of it.... but it's still a struggle for me... to quiet my mind long enough for a 15 minute session.  I've done a lot of Deepak Chopra's meditation series and the free 21-day sessions he does throughout the year - I'm doing this one now (Expanding your Happiness - it's free - click the link and come join in!).  I love doing it everyday, right when I wake up - it kind of eases me into awakeness... is that a word?  haha.   But guess who's already awake when I try to meditate -- yep - you guessed it... my brain!  UGH!!  The music is so peaceful... I try to relax and concentrate on my breath and the mantra - and bam... thoughts and plans start bombarding me and before I know it, Deepak rings the bell and meditation is over.  :(   Some days it's over and I feel like I haven't even started -- so I start the recording over!  This time promising myself I'm going to "sweep" any thoughts away and truly get to my "peace".  (This morning I thought about writing this blog post - DURING my meditation - ugh!)

Anderson Pond
Well.... I'm getting better... but I still haven't gone a whole session without thinking!  Some day, I hope I get there!  I think it'd be really beautiful and relaxing to actually have 15 minutes of not thinking.  Can you believe some people meditate for hours??  How the heck do they do that??  It seems to be easier for me to meditate out in nature.  

Harbor Island, San Diego
 When I'm in Wisconsin - I can walk about a mile through the neighborhood to Anderson Pond.  I cop a squat under a tree near the water's edge, pop my headphones on and listen to one of my meditation recordings... or when I'm in California - I sit on my beach chair at Harbor Island or Mission Beach or LaJolla Cove, listen to the meditation, smell the ocean air, feel the breeze -- these are the times when I'm the closest to "shutting it off"! 

LaJolla Cove, San Diego
 It's the WATER, I tell ya!  I feel so much more peaceful near the water.  I know it's where I'm meant to be!  

There's a book I heard about on TV, called "Blue Mind: The Surprising Science That Shows How Being Near, In, On, or Under Water Can Make You Happier, Healthier, More Connected, and Better at What You Do" by Wallace J. Nichols.  It sounded like it explains exactly how I've felt my whole life!  I just ordered it from Amazon and I can't wait to read it!  (You can click the link to order it too - if you wish.)

Do you meditate?  Do you have a racing mind like I do?  How do you deal??  Let me know!  And let me know if you've read this book and what you thought!

Hugs,
Sue